Documenting Eruditions
Posted in Attitudes, Going Inwards on Oct 11th, 2010
What is specialness but a belief of not being special? As I goggled the word ‘specialness’, something interesting caught my eye in its definition: the state or quality of being special; accompanied by an example: He was vain about his specialness until he realized he was really very common. It is very easy to be […]
Posted in Going Inwards, Ideas on Oct 10th, 2010
Last night, was a period of darkness for me after a light hearted meal with loved ones. There was much going on in the mind that it did not stop. I allowed it to run, to see how far it’d go. And soon, I was blessed with ancient feelings of betrayal and abandonment; totally imaginary, […]
Posted in Excerpts from Books on Aug 4th, 2010
In an example where you desired to find someone to love you, your desire undoubtedly reflects that you do not feel loved now and believe that no one cares much about you. Discover the heart-closing thoughts by which you create this sense of not being loved or cared for, such as “No one will ever […]
Posted in Going Inwards on Jun 9th, 2010
From a core belief of unworthiness is stem lots more beliefs resulting in behaviors which are either confirmatory or compensational, as illustrated by Paul Ferrini very clearly in his book ‘Embracing Our True Self’. In other words, we either try to manifest that belief or try to prove that it is wrong. I was having […]
Posted in Ideas on May 24th, 2010
Can we ever, ever choose the pace of our growth? I remember comparing myself with those around me some time ago, never fully appreciating the space that I’ve arrived at. When I perceive that I am not any better or wiser than another, then I begin to beat myself up, ‘how could I not see […]
Posted in Attitudes on May 17th, 2010
Most times, we want some things, or yearn for certain experiences but run around in circles not getting to them. We unconsciously prevent ourselves from fully experiencing what could possibly turn out to be one of the best encounters in our lives and revolve later that regret into self-remorse. I remember during my early college […]
Posted in Going Inwards on May 9th, 2010
We are constantly toggling between pleasing others, and pleasing ourselves. Very rarely are we authentically doing anything. Of course, when we truly question the inner core intention of action; whether pleasing others or pleasing ourselves; of what’s it in for me – it always comes back to me, me and me. What differentiates the intention […]
Posted in Going Inwards on May 5th, 2010
It is amazing how the set ups of the outside world are constantly remind me how ‘real’ and ‘troubled’ I am, or how I could use the body to influence the mind. Maybe I am missing a point here, but I am still not seeing how an effect can sway the source of experience. My […]
Posted in Going Inwards on Apr 30th, 2010
Apparently, arrogance is defined as overbearing pride evidenced by a superior manner towards inferiors (derived from the freedictonary.com). And when I started asking around what other people thought about the word ‘arrogance’, there was an equal feedback of the positive and negative meaning of it. When I say positive and negative here, I am not […]
Posted in Ideas on Apr 28th, 2010
I have many conditions in my life; and the easiest condition in my life, is to be unconditional. The easiest condition in my life, is yet the hardest I’ve ever had to deal with and practice – and that is, unconditionality.