Documenting Eruditions
Posted in Going Inwards, Ideas on Oct 10th, 2010
Last night, was a period of darkness for me after a light hearted meal with loved ones. There was much going on in the mind that it did not stop. I allowed it to run, to see how far it’d go. And soon, I was blessed with ancient feelings of betrayal and abandonment; totally imaginary, […]
Posted in Ideas on Oct 10th, 2010
What has my loving you, got anything to do with my feelings of being abandoned, being betrayed? What has my loving you, got anything to do with wanting to be with you, to kiss you, hold you, or to the extent of having you make love to me? What has my loving you, got anything […]
Posted in Attitudes on Oct 7th, 2010
giving up, why should I have come too far to forget beautiful, just got lost somewhere along the way so much was missing when you went away let’s start from here, lose the past change our minds, we don′t need a finish line let’s take this chance, don’t think too deep all those promises we couldn′t seem […]
Posted in Going Inwards, Ideas on Oct 6th, 2010
In some of my recent experiences with several loved ones, I began to observe that we tend to constraint ourselves with conditions by imposing them (the conditions) on our loved ones. Being willful of constant conscious intention to break free from bondage, it can be quite an interesting encounter to witness others including myself in […]
Posted in Poems on Oct 5th, 2010
As the boy and the girl approached to the entrance to her home, she waited with anticipation. * He asked, “do you want me to give you a kiss?” * Stunt by such a question, she looked down and blurted, “the moment is gone” * She, still waiting for the opportune; he said, “ok, good […]
Posted in Going Inwards on Sep 27th, 2010
It is much easier to believe that you don’t love me or that you will leave me, than to address to why I am still holding on to you when I don’t love you. And to say I don’t love you is also not true, because there is a part of it that feels like […]
Posted in Going Inwards on Sep 11th, 2010
Strangely, I’ve observed that there is this thing about dying and death in my space recently. It is either about a friend passing away, or a friend’s friend, or a friend’s relative, or a friend’s mom. Even in newspaper or one of my preferred blogs, there too was mention of death. When I heard of […]
Posted in Attitudes, Going Inwards on Aug 25th, 2010
I received a text message from a friend I have not connected with for years who shared that she was abused. Since I do not know her well (although we were from the same class during our younger days), it was as good as sharing with a stranger; and I guess the space between us […]
Posted in Attitudes on Jul 22nd, 2010
I chanced upon an article from a dailyom.com subscription sent to me. I am sharing here as reminder to myself and others who are on the journey. 🙂 === Each of us is on our own path and we all learn differently. Because of this it is important to not interfere with another’s path of growth. When we care about […]
Posted in Going Inwards on Jul 19th, 2010
Along the way, in the midst of aloneness and loneliness (and they are different, mind you), we attract like-minded friends. Due to common interests, sparks of interesting conversations set off, initiating an inevitable blossoming association, where when unmindful, can lead to a clinging-on relationship which turns a sincere, free connection to one of seeking one […]