Documenting Eruditions
Posted in Attitudes, Going Inwards on Oct 12th, 2010
Following an experience as cited in my earlier entry Full Frontier, I begun to see that there is indeed no need of a storyline for any feelings to arise but to stay with it. Any storyline that accompanies the feeling usually just intensifies the feelings resulting in either grasping or running away from it. In […]
Posted in Going Inwards, Ideas on Oct 10th, 2010
Last night, was a period of darkness for me after a light hearted meal with loved ones. There was much going on in the mind that it did not stop. I allowed it to run, to see how far it’d go. And soon, I was blessed with ancient feelings of betrayal and abandonment; totally imaginary, […]
Posted in Going Inwards, Ideas on Oct 6th, 2010
In some of my recent experiences with several loved ones, I began to observe that we tend to constraint ourselves with conditions by imposing them (the conditions) on our loved ones. Being willful of constant conscious intention to break free from bondage, it can be quite an interesting encounter to witness others including myself in […]
Posted in Going Inwards on Sep 27th, 2010
It is much easier to believe that you don’t love me or that you will leave me, than to address to why I am still holding on to you when I don’t love you. And to say I don’t love you is also not true, because there is a part of it that feels like […]
Hope begins in the dark, the stubborn hope that if you just show up and try to do the right thing, the dawn will come, the dawn will come. You wait and watch and work: You don’t give up. – Anne Lamott
Posted in Attitudes, Going Inwards on Aug 25th, 2010
I received a text message from a friend I have not connected with for years who shared that she was abused. Since I do not know her well (although we were from the same class during our younger days), it was as good as sharing with a stranger; and I guess the space between us […]
Posted in Ideas on Aug 19th, 2010
The other day I was inspired to write an entry on Zombies. But today, having sung the song ‘Zombie’ and ‘The Barbie Girl’ at karaoke, I felt that they were of no difference, except that Barbies and Kens were much prettier images to look at, compared to Zombies. Zombies, Barbies & Kens – what are […]
Posted in Going Inwards on Aug 11th, 2010
Looking at my partner’s drive to soar in his career, I have great appreciation and admiration for him. Although there are times, I wished that he was present to me, but when I become fully present to him instead, I find him a very interest subject to converse with, and also, I’d find myself there […]
Posted in Going Inwards on Jul 15th, 2010
Time and time again, we are constantly being lured into believing that there is someone out there who loves and approves us, wholly accepting us we are. And because of that addiction, we can never excuse ourselves from being affected by the way others react to us, whether they smile at us, wink at us, […]
Posted in Attitudes on Jul 12th, 2010
I was having a conversation with a friend who expressed how grateful he was to this mutual friend we have; how she had thrown a life line to him when he was at his downiest, and thereby felt he owed it to her, leading him to do something that did not resonate with his heart […]