Documenting Eruditions
Posted in Attitudes on Jun 5th, 2010
For a while now I have realized how the living life in societal context is actually meaningless. A friend once asked me, that if she was not playing mom to her kids, wife to her husband, teacher to her students, who then is she? Coincidently, my teacher also mentioned something about mid-life crisis last night […]
Posted in Attitudes, Going Inwards on Jun 1st, 2010
An aunt called yesterday and was asking how I was. The last she spoke to me, I told her that I was in a transition and was feeling depressed. She asked me curiously what I was depressed about. While I tried my level best to explain to her of what I was going through during […]
Posted in Attitudes, Going Inwards on May 19th, 2010
When I started my inward journey with constant efforts and willing inner work which included self-awareness, self-observation and self-inquiry, I soon realized that these qualities became pretty much a natural process unfolding during times of trigger. One by one, closed ones whom I was once and some, still pretty much attached to soon by now, […]
Posted in Attitudes on May 17th, 2010
Most times, we want some things, or yearn for certain experiences but run around in circles not getting to them. We unconsciously prevent ourselves from fully experiencing what could possibly turn out to be one of the best encounters in our lives and revolve later that regret into self-remorse. I remember during my early college […]
Posted in Going Inwards on May 13th, 2010
When I sat onto the driver’s seat, I noticed that there were still specks of dust around the interior of the car despite having promised that the car would been thoroughly cleaned for my collection. I wasn’t displeased, but I wasn’t pleased either; but it did keep me wondering, why is it that we could not […]
Posted in Attitudes, Going Inwards on May 10th, 2010
We can never escape from the myriads of emotions that arise in our day-to-day living. While we welcome pleasant feelings such as happiness, joyfulness and peace, we on the other hand very much detest the opposite kind of feelings such as sadness, insecurity, anger, aversion and etc. We all know why we detest these feelings […]
Posted in Going Inwards on May 9th, 2010
We are constantly toggling between pleasing others, and pleasing ourselves. Very rarely are we authentically doing anything. Of course, when we truly question the inner core intention of action; whether pleasing others or pleasing ourselves; of what’s it in for me – it always comes back to me, me and me. What differentiates the intention […]
Posted in Going Inwards on Apr 29th, 2010
Thoughts are in fact, each separate on its own. But when we unconsciously hang on to a thought oblivious to another which comes along anyway, we tend to think that the subsequent thoughts and the first thought I hung on to, are all related. Very similar to an analogy of a train – each carriage […]
Posted in Going Inwards on Apr 28th, 2010
I had the most intimate relationship with my thoughts. Yes, my thoughts. Not my mother, not my father, not my partner, not my friends, not even my daughter or my pets; but with my thoughts. They had such power over me that I would believe everything they say – I am pretty, I am ugly, […]
Posted in Going Inwards on Apr 23rd, 2010
A beloved came over for dinner tonight. After dinner, we headed off for gelatos and in the midst of our indulgence in the gelatos, she abruptly told me that she had an argument with her partner. As I listened to her story, I was careful for the mind not to interpret what I was listening […]